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well it's come undone
looks like i'll have to fake it
seems like i do that anyway
admit to no control
i thought with time i'd get better
i am temporary
although i said
i wouldn't waste the time
i went and did it anyway
whether or not i said i saw it coming
i set myself up again
even split of words and actions
that's not mine to depend
stash the evidence
so it will be forgotten
i can't forget it anyway
try to defuse
but i've been trying that forever
i am temporary
i thought with time i'd get better