Abby Ahmad

Lost on Me

Repeat performance
Cruel déjà vu
You play the bad guy
And I'll play the fool

How could I slip and make the same mistake twice?
When did I learn to forgo my own good advice?

I cannot stand here
Awaiting the day
That your actions
Match the words that you say

My heart’s gone bankrupt
Selling wisdom for free
Every lesson learned is another one
Lost on me

I am a danger to myself
Get all mangled
Tangled
Tied up in the past

Be true unto thyself
But I can’t manage
I’m damaged
A victim to typecast

Applause, applause
Three cheers for the lost cause
Fragile, flawed
Shining center stage

But the pain makes you grow
Hard land to tow
When everything’s changing
Now, see how I’ve changed

I cannot stand here
Awaiting the day
You finally decide to
Get out of your own way

I sacrificed my want
Appeasing your need
Every lesson learned is another one
Lost on me

Things that you tried to hide
I chose to ignore
Guess we’re both better actors
Than we gave ourselves credit for

But now that I can finally see
All those things you’ve held inside
Despite what you have meant to me
I cannot just let this slide

See, I cannot stand here
Pretend we're ok
Not like you’ve fessed up
To your fact, anyway

I tried to play teacher
I never could be
Every lesson learned is another one lost on me
Every lesson learned, another one's lost on me
Every lesson learned, another one's lost on me

But man, why’d you have to
Go and get lost on me?