Melissa Ferrick

Well I feel so messed up
I can't get clear
And I don't know what to do
Cause I'm neck deep in fear
My back feels like its been holdin' up the weight
And this house and these three cats
And my truck filled with crap

But with every little bang, every little push
Every little step I take, I get closer
A second at a time, usin' my breath
Maybe it's true I've got a fear of success
But with every little bang, every little push
Every little step I take
I'm gettin' closer
I'm gettin' a little bit closer

This life is not so simple
No it ain't just blah, blah, blah
And I imagine my brain looks like a carousel on fire
And when I go into hiding
You know to just stay clear
You get it's not about you it's just
Me fightin' me, fightin' me, fightin' me out here

But with every little bang, every little push
Every little step I take, I get closer
A second at a time, usin' my breath
Maybe it's true I've got a fear of success
But with every little bang, every little push
Every little step I take
I'm gettin' closer
I'm gettin' closer

And I still can’t sit still
Oh, we’re late
And I'm so tired but I lay here awake
Wonderin' what you see
I wonder, what it is you get?
And why am I so lucky?
'Cause you haven't left me yet
Oh, you haven't even left me yet
Why am I so lucky?

But with every little bang, every little push
Every little step I take, I get closer
A second at a time, usin' my breath
Maybe it's true I've got a fear of success
But with every little bang, every little push
Every little step I take, I get closer
A second at a time, usin' my breath
Maybe it's true I've got a fear of success
But with every little bang, every little push
Every little step I take
I'm gettin' closer
I'm gettin' closer
I'm gettin' closer
I’m getting’ a little bit closer
I'm gettin' closer