Selfish

My mental anxiety
reaches it's bitter end
am I paranoid or just dumb...

Defeated by my own trap
my senses are coming away
am I paranoid or just dumb?...

Confusion in my head
can't be stopped by myself at all
I'm hiding behind a smile of my soul
I'm unable to control the chaos
behind a gun slapped my thoughts
in me to reach for something more...

Anxiety turned into apathic stereotype
my passivity is unbreakable
I don't feel like it's me right now
my life turned out of the standard
fortunately it is all passable...

Confusion...

Sometimes I wonder if I'm
not superflues for all these
carefree losers here...
It makes me do a thing that
Billy Joe once hardly tried
I will bang it up against the wall...