Dust

I remember faking being sick on the first day of school
You took my temperature with the back of your hand,
you were no fool,
packed my lunch, started the car,
droped me off out front, you made me feel strong
you were the toughest person I have ever known
a super hero mom, I would never felt alone
then you got sick, in that hospital room,
they cut your ring of your finger, because your hand was so swollen
I held your arm to the end of the sheet as you fought
to pull those tubes out your throat to speak
and I whispered goodbye, but you didn't wake up
the first of december 03 I pulled the plug

you were the very best parts of me,
every day you will always be my everything
not to many leaves left on these november tree
and I miss you more every christmas you don't spend with me

these are the words to hard to say
carving our names on a ocean wave, t. r. r. j.
I don't want you as a maybe
If time is what it takes, than time is all I give you baby
from our first date to the last,
I've never lost that feeling you gave me when you smiled back
I'm the only other person in this world with you
Since the night we met, there has never been a girl but you
I see me cooking on your study breaks,
I see you pregnant in the grass with the sun in your face
I see you holding my hand the day I summon the strenght
to board a plane to visit my mothers grave
I love you every day, every time it rains
shit I hope it pours the very moment I give you this ring
because we have been through some shit
and that will never change, thats an other reason I know you are my everything
I'm sorry if I ever doubted you
sorry for the pain I brought around you and all the songs I wrote about you
I'm sorry if I ever shot down and didn't listen,
sometime when life gets hard I just need a minute
I'm drawing black hearts,
placing fingers through the notches in your spine, we are all right
Hot talk in this new sheleave
you are my ocean, the love of my life and my family

you were the very best parts of me,
every day you will always be my everything
not to many leaves left on these november tree
and I hope I never have a christmas you don't spend with me

I feel like i'm sixteen, prepping back in Jeff's car
twisted an other plum, he only liked the ones that left a mark
that's the best part of growing up
we are here to pass with the stars, so we to stay to say what's'up
what's up to drinking in the park, acting hard
driving up to Chrissy Peak and making out in her car
what's up to falling a part, what's up to keeping it cool
what's up to all the best friends never giving up
give it up to the scars that you got, placed by some dumb motherfuckers,
but they made you who you are so,
so grab the rap sheet of all my bad deeds and flip it over,
to write a future where I'm happy
it's the last scene and I don't know the end,
I just know who I want to be when they vote the credit
so put your hands in the dirt, just to warm the ground
I'm gonna bould a life that my father started and make him proud
It's hard day working like he did when he was young
I think about him dying every day I wake up
but there ain't shit I can do, I just call him and speak
Not to many leaves left on these november trees

I wrote this song to day
Its my mothers name, my fathers face and my lovers faith
It's an other day to spend with all of you
except one, I love you mama, signed your only son

you were the very best parts of me,
every day you will always be my everything
not to many leaves left on these november tree
and I hope next christmas you'll get to spend with me

you were the very best parts of me,
every day you will always be my everything
not to many leaves left on these november tree
Love is an angel and she is waiting for me
love is an angel and she is waiting for me
I said love is an angel and she is waiting for me.