Refused

the weight of my words is not enough to make up for the words I didn´t say
i´m sorry - didn´t wan´t to close the door
just afraid to suffocate inside this these arms where i´ll find comfort
I will try not to break another mirror because that would be that I only break myself
my eyes have never felt so soar - if I had only known more
self centered - myself to blame - death is fucking you insane
a selfish boy with fear and doubt afraid to let it inside
I promised myself that I wouldn´t break it another time
no questions asked through all the time - just answers taken
my guilt - my thoughts - my mind
where - who´s to judge?
I think I need to breath - let the door be open
the only one who is choking me is myself
why can´t I see that you are the sun - the rain - the fuel I need inside
why can´t I see?
I will try - I won´t listen - I will cry
sunflower princess